Hasina Patel told Sky News in her first interview since the bombings, in which her husband and three other bombers killed 52 people on London trains and a bus, that she went to hospital to find she had lost the baby -- then got home to see news of the attacks on the television.
''I kept trying to phone him leaving messages, saying...'I am still bleeding, something's up','' she told Sky News in an interview shown today. ''I went to the hospital with my mum and the midwife she told me that I'd lost the baby.
''I went back to my own house and put the TV on and I saw that the bombings ... were just all over the news.'' Her husband, Mohammad Sidique Khan, 30, the oldest of the bombers, detonated a rucksack bomb on a train in a tunnel at London's Edgware Road, killing himself and six others.
Khan had taken his wife to hospital for a scan of what was to be their second child two days before the bombings. He dropped her home and said he was off to see his friends.
''That was the last time I saw him,'' she said. ''(It was) just a normal goodbye -- see you later, I'm going out, I'll be back in a few hours.'' In a will and handwritten note, Khan asked for her forgiveness and understanding.
''You have tried to be a good wife, but I have deceived you,'' the letter said, according to Patel. It also contained 400 pounds (820 dollars) to buy toys.
''It was really sad because he mentioned 'children' and he obviously thought that the pregnancy had gone ahead.'' Anti-terrorist police arrested Patel in May on suspicion of the commission, preparation or instigation of acts of terrorism.
Although she was released without charge days later, the arrest ''turned her life upside down'', she said.
She ''completely condemned'' the July 7 attacks and said she now wants to rebuild her life with their young daughter.
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